Life without Anorexia

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'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Sunday, March 30, 2014

Stu(dying)

I can not wait until my maths test is over tomorrow. My brain and thougths are like mush at the moment. My eyes hurt, i feel very slow and heavy... my head is pounding.
  Too much maths, too much concentration, too much studying. Though in all honesty, half of the time i have just been procrastinating..... But i guess thats part of it.

Am i feeling confident for the test tomorrow? Not at all. But i just feel that no amount of studying would make me feel confident. I just feel that its too much to learn, to memorize, however i know that i have worked my ass off with all the maths studying, and that i should atleast pass.... and aiming for atleast a C (as an A is almost impossible in these maths tests).

Half way through my studying when i felt i needed a break i got up and made a quick chocolate cake (takes like 25 minutes in total - from start to baked!)
  I wasnt really craving  chocolate cake - more that i wanted somethign to do. But you have to taste what you bake!! And it was delicious, though a bit too sweet for my liking.




This evening i have no plans, im feeling really tired. Mentally tired, though physically i have so much enegry and all i want to do is go to the gym. But its important to give my body a break as well. And considering how tired i am mentally at the moment, i think i would do one push up and then collapse! haha

Tomorrow there will be a huge weight off my shoulders!! Though, its just to start studying for the next test after this... But lets just take one thing at a time!

7 comments:

  1. Hang in there, Iz.
    So you have that A-F -rating in Sweden? It seems like Finland is the only country with the grades of ten to four. How do you count and announce your gpa?

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    1. Thank you :)
      Yeah we have the A-F with all the different knowledge requirements... infact, i dont like the gradiing system here in Sweden. In Ireland we had A-F but it was from the % on tests, here in sweden you have to fullfil certain requirments.

      Well you get a certain amount of points for the program you go, and then i think you get better points the better grade you have.... But i could be wrong :)

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  2. You are so hardworking, i wish i could be more like you in that way. I have no motivation and so much to do.
    Good luck with the test!

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    1. Thank you!!
      Well its just to focus on your goals, and to atleast try. Make a plan of when you will study and how long and try to stick with it. Somedays are tougher, but its all about routine!

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  3. You are so dedicated, in your studies, yourself, and your blog! You are incredible. :]

    And the cake looks good, even if you said it's pretty sweet. It must have been fun to make, though. :D

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    1. Thank you :)
      I havent been baking in a while - no time or motivation. So it was fun to just make something quickly... get my baking creativity going! :)

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  4. what is the cake recipe? i love sweet things! hehehe :D

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