Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Thursday, March 6, 2014

Recovery reminders/truths

The 3 most common fears and questions i get asked is that, you are scared that you will keep gaining weight. And that is understandable. However it doesnt happen that way. Your body has a healthy weight which it will reach, it is different for everyone. Some peoples healthy weight is BMI 21, others BMI 19, others more or less etc You can not compare yourself to others.
  There is ofcourse a certain procent of people recovering from anorexia who end up developing bulimia and maybe continuing to gain weight. However, they have then developed another eating disorder, they are not healthy.
  If you are healthy and eating intuitively, then you wont keep gaining weight. Then you will stay at your healthy weight +/- 2kg, thats how the body works. If you do develop binge eating disorder or bulimia, then you need more proffessional help or to talk to someone about what is going on in your head and why you are eating so much and have no control.
  No one keeps gaining and gaining weight. 

Also, extreme hunger is common in recovery and you can end up eating extreme amounts. That hunger can come anywhere from the beginning of recovery to somewhere in the middle or even end of recovery (I.e when you are close to your goal weight). Its hard to know whether its binge eating or extreme hunger due to recovery. However, i would say binge eating is when its just cravings, boredom or out of stress of emotions. Its like you just think about a certain food and want to eat it and then you cant stop yourself. However with extreme hunger its like you dont feel full... its not one certain food you want. You just want to eat, its like a whole in your stomach and you can keep eating. Extreme hunger is scary, but it is important to listen to your body andeat.

  1. Your body has an optimal weight set point that it can and will defend. [RE Keesey et al., 1997; RE Keesey, 1988] Your body can manage without your conscious interference. Your set point is managed and distributed throughout brain structures that are far more mature, evolutionarily speaking, than your late-to-the-party conscious thought. Think of this as your prime directive: do not interfere in a process that your body can manage.
  2. No one keeps gaining and gaining.
  3. Extreme hunger is a normal progression in recovery. It does not last. You do not ‘habituate’ to 6000-10,000 calories a day, but you need that energy during refeeding.


  1. In your opinion is BMI a valid index of an elthy condition? My BMI is 17,3 and i eat alot and whatever i want :(

    1. Bmi doesnt tell you everything, so no not really. You are the only one who can really know when you are healthy - as its pretty much all in the head. However then you have to ask yourself why you dont want to, or cant go up to the minimum BMI of 18,5`?
      If you actually are healthy, and dont have any ED thoughts then you would realise that its ok to gain weight because you are in fact still underweight.

      So think about that... are you actually healthy, or just half healthy adn trying to convince yourself of other?

  2. really useful description about the difference between extreme hunger and binging :-) thanks! J