Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Monday, June 3, 2013

Love your legs

Something which i have learnt to love about myself, is my legs.
  My legs are something which i have always had a big problem with... always hated them. While i was sick my legs were something which i hated very much, and always saw my legs as really muscular (which they really werent) but because i was so active and constantly using my legs i never had 'chicken legs' (which is what i wanted.)
 
^^ my 'thigh gap' wasnt that big - i'm slightly leaning over.


While recovering and starting to accept my body again, the one thing which i could never accept was my legs. And i can still have problems with the way they look. I remember asking my mum and sister if my calves were big, and they got angry at me. :/
    
I am learning to love my legs - not just for how they look, but what they can do. I love that i have the strength to squat 20kg (but really its like 80kg - as my bodyweight as well!) i can walk for hours, i can stand, i can run, i can run fast ang long!! Today i ran 9,5km in 45 minutes!!! And im just happy for what i can do!
  And i like how my legs are toning up, being more formed!! 

Its no longer skinny, but more muscular and healthy!! :)



We all have our body parts which we arent as happy about. But we need to learn to accept them and stop striving for perfection, or for skinny.
We need to accept and love our selves!!


18 comments:

  1. girl your legs are not THAT muscular. they're actually pretty skinny.

    my legs are muscular, so i know what u'm tlaking about

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    1. Haha, thank you :) Not hey're not extremly muscular, but more than others anyway ;) But its not a bad thing!! ^_^

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    2. Ha. Yes. I agree. You're still pretty thin hun. But glad you are working out and gaining fitness.

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  2. Be happy for yourself. Don't let people bring you down. There will always be haters everywhere you can't escape them :)

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    1. Thank you :) Hahah, in this case.. the hater was myself. :/ But as they say, youe mind is your worst enemy!

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    2. Well done on all you've achieved, you look abfab! :) Thanks for the inspiration, I still struggle with legs, as like you, I love to run. I had to take lysine supplements to recover all my lost muscle mass...but then gave me bulky thighs! What would you say is the best way to run (in terms of distance, speed, frequency) to not bulk up? Really, thanks! :D

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  3. Your legs are a bit muscular, my legs are the doble of yours I do a lot of sports basketball, atletism and swimming as well, I really HATE my legs I admire you really because of that self confidence you are getting I meet many people like you I would really like to be like you in that wa and stop doing the stupid things I've been doing
    PS: I have no account thats why I'm anonymus xD

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  4. I have the same problem!! But i feel like when you lose so much weight during anorexia, it's worse, because everything looks so unproportional, so your legs may 'seem' to look big. But once you start gaining, everything evens out and you generally just look better!

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  5. Awwww you look so perfect :) I'm so happy for you ^-^ I"m so glad i found your blog <3 You look so healthy, fit and beautiful <3 I wish i had your legs~~ Congratulations :)

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  6. You are perfect and you look beautiful!! :)

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  7. Dear Izzy!

    Your legs are still very thin! Of course you look healthier now than you used to during your anorexic days, but even now you are very slim, much thinner than about 95% of all the women I see every day. Even if you'll gain more weight, you will stay skinny.

    Congratulations on your recovery. It's a bit weird that you used to be ill just in those years when I was healthy and happy, and recovered in August 2012, when I had my big relapse which still controls and ruins my life. I wish I was as strong as you and could kick this ugly illness out of my life. So you deserve all the applause in the world for beating up such a serious illness.

    *Hugs from Denmark*

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  8. you are so disordered, you are lying to yourself when you say youre recovered. you shouldnt be dieting (still trying to achieve a healthy is) or exercising (and you are doing alot (even if it wasnt alot you do it to achieve a healthy or it makes you feel better which is false) , you are very skinny and the way you say "im not skinny anymore but muscular" is just you trying to seek approval or others saying wow you are still skinny. Dont get me started on your plate weigher; that explains itself. i know recovery is all different and some can recover on a diet (otherwise you just eat what you want min 2500-3000+ cals) and exercise, but i believe 99% are just using that to ease the eating disorder and i know that you probably know this deep down but its obvious to me you are pretending with all of this and that when you go over your limit (you shouldnt even have a limit (you will deny this but you still have a limit to an extent in your mind) you feel bad or ashamed, and there is an unlimited amount of food you should really have, that doesnt mean alot but it means what ever you want

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    1. I made this post 2013... alot changes both physical and mental health in 3 years ;)

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  9. Did u have swollen legs during your sick years?

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  10. I have the exact same issue with my legs, I believe they were the very reason why I wanted to start dieting in the first Place (which lead to an eating disorder). I'm still struggling to 'love my legs', do you have any tips on how to accept yourself the way you are?

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  11. izzy you are very fit and beautiful girl you like me you are a good girl

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