Worrying about food and calories,
just shouldnt be part of your daily life. Though it is something which is on alot of peoples minds - not only those with EDs. So many people - women/girls mainly, are so focused on their weight. On food and calories. Constantly trying new diets, avoiding certain foods. Counting calories, and then feeling guilty when they do eat.
But that shouldnt be the way people think.
You should be able to eat food you enjoy, food which you like without feeling guilty, or have to compensate or trying to figure out how many calories you have eaten. From my own experience, counting calories is just a bad obsession. Too little calories isnt good.
I eat 'clean', but you know what, i dont even want to call it that. Because you know what,
i just eat food i enjoy. The food which i want. I dont deprive myself. If i want chocolate, then i will eat it. If i want a fruit, then i'll eat that. I dont want to put a term on how i eat. I just eat what i want, and how much i want. Some days i eat LOADS, and other days its less.
And you know what, i dont count calories. But i am not gaining weight and im not losing weight. My body is keeping me at the weight im supposed to be. It can cope with the extra calories i might eat one day, and its ok if i eat less another day.
I constantly read about girls who are so insecure about their bodies, and now that its soon
Summer 2013. Its June, in a few days. Girls are going crazy trying to diet their way down a few kilo. But it really doesnt work like that. And feeling ashmaed or embarrassed about your body isnt good for anyone.
Trust me, others see the beauty in you. And you need to learn to see
your own beauty. And stop focusing so much on your weight, and what you see in the mirror. Find a hobby which you love. Spend time with friends, do things which you love. And take the focus away from your appearance.
I can tell you from my own experience, when i stopped counting calories,
life became a lot easier. I ate what i wanted, when i wanted. I didnt feel this anxiety about going out to eat, or going to friends houses. I didnt need to figure out how much i ate. Instead i ate until i was full, and i didnt feel any anxiety afterwards.
Its time to start enjoying life, and enjoying food. Not just seeing food as figures.