Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Friday, August 24, 2012

Too much stress and not enough sleep equals one very unconcentrated girl.

After school, which was anything but enjoyable today, i met with D, and we decided to walk back to my place, which we had never done before, but we wanted to know the way.
   We talked and walked, and it took us barely 25 minutes... its nice to know that i can walk to school!!!
   We then sat and ate a little snack, which consisted of vanilla wafers and my home made scones!!!
   After a while, when my mum had come home, we took my dog (Daisy) out for a walk!!
  Slowly my mood started going down, and i got the worst headache and i was anything but socail. I could barely hear what D was saying, and i must have seemed flat out rude. Sitting in my own little world, but it was scary. I actually couldnt concentrate. I was filled with anxiety, and this panic was growing inside of me.
   My ears were blocking out everything, and i jsut wanted to lock myself in my room and cry... no idea why i wanted to cry. I just did....

I tried to be social and talk.. but it just didnt work... and i think D understood. Because without me telling her, she realised that maybe i needed some alone time. Or that she should go...
  
I dont know why im feeling like this, so much stress, panic and anxiety... its not like me.
  But i think its school related. I think its just a shock to my system, to wake up so early, long days in school and then im just so exhausted in hte evenings, it feels like i dont even have time, or want to meet friends or do anythign afterward.
  Im sure ill be fine in a week or two when ive really gotten used to school, but for now. I just have to take time for myself, to relax and think, to destress.
  Otherwise things will spiral out of control.. so i need to start taking care of myself, and not getting to stressed, because then i take it out on food. I stop eating when im stressed, sometimes it happens that i even overeat... and both are bad.¨
   I am very bad at contrlling stress, especially school & test related stress because i put such a high standard for myself...
   its not easy. But im trying to cope...

2 comments:

  1. You can do it! Just take a deep breath, get some sleep, and remind yourself that you only need to take life one day at a time. There is no big hurry!
    I hope that you can relax over the weekend, and that you forget about Monday. Then when Monday comes, you'll be well rested and ready for life! (: Best of wishes!

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    1. Aww thank you:) I am going to try to take of easy and just relax. Get my energy back !:)

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