Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Friday, August 31, 2012

Sometimes all you need is a hug and someone to listen

All i really want right now is a really big, long hug... and the thing is, i hate hugs. Ask my family, my friends... they'll all tell you, that i hate hugs.
  But now, thats all i want... and i want someone to listen... i want to talk about all my problems and feelings.. i want someone to be there for me, instead of the other way around...
   but nobody has time for me.... (didnt i like write the same thing a few days ago?)
  I dont know if its me pushing people or away, or if its just that they dont care...? i dont know which one is right.

Letting the tears roll down my cheeks, im just gonna drown myself in my studies, and spend my Friday night with my nose in my school books... Life is so tragic.
I want something fun to look forward to... i want sun. I want friends. I want parties and alochol. I want memories and nights to remember. I want to be able to sit out in the evening, i want days on the beach.....
  I want summer- I cant believe i have to wait a whole year...

In Sweden, many get this autumn/winter depression as it get so dark and cold, and the weather so bad. And i get very affected by the weather, so that is also affecting my moood...
  at the moment, i have no idea how ill last this autumn/winter... not if im this affected by bad weather...


  1. You want parties and alcohol, but are you sure that these would be the nights to be remembered? you are so young!
    Don't fall in this mistake! :)
    What about nature? Sweden has great nature, take advantage of it and this will be reassure you , maybe :)

    1. Hahah... 'the youth these days'!! XD Nature is great, i love taking walks in the forest. Or out running in the forest, or nature, or by the water...
      I love being on the beach and out in the grass... really, i should have mentioned that aswell...
      going out for walks in the forest is great, its just not something you remember... ive grown up with my mum always dragging me out for long walks in the forest or something... so i dont know... :) ahah

      But come to think of it, i think i would feel alot better if i actually took a long walk out in the nature! (thats one of the best things i know :) )