Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Self esteem and happiness

When you're sick, you lose your self esteem (Many already have a low self esteem) and happiness, and you can end up wondering why you're living as nothing seems fun anymore.
How do you get your self esteem and happiness back? How do you learn to accept yourself?
How do you get your self esteem back? For me, ive always had bad self esteem, always been very self conscious. Worried abotu what others think, trying to be perfect, wanting everyone to like me... and i am still that way. Just not as much, i dont worry so much about what others think., But im still a bit of a perfectionist, and want people to like me....
   To get your self esteem back, you have to find things you like about yourself. Good things.
  Look in the mirror and instead of seeing your flaws... find the things you like about yourself!! Maybe you love your eyes, or your high cheekbones? Maybe your arms, or your legs? Maybe your hands,,,?
  Find minimum 5 good things about yourself, and remind yourself about them. Look in the mirror, and be open. Tell yourself that you are beautiful!
  Dont bring yourself down, or notice your flaws.. that doesnt help anything.
 You are the only one who notices small things like a spot, or a wonky tooth or different ear size? Nobody sees or notices that, so why do you?
  Its easy to bring yourself down and critisize yourself, but that doesnt help....
  you want to feel good about yourself!

Another good thing to od is write down good things about yourself, and you can tape it to the mirror... so you see that each time!
  If you find it really hard to look in the mirror without critiszing yourself, or wanting to cry... avoid the mirror. Instead, focus on just telling yourself that you are beautiful!!!
   Also writing down positive things, like.. i get good grades, im good at drawing, people compliment my nails... i like my nails aswell... etc etc... things like that. So you can see the positives, not the negatives!

To get your happiness back, to feel happy again... you need to do things which you find fun. Do thigns which make your happy, that you enjoy so that life isnt jsut the same... that the days just flow by in an endless, boring life...
   If you dont know what you love, what makes you happy. Start trying new things. You wont know if you dont try. Try something you've always wanted to do. Go a course or start a new club.
   Meet friends and spend time with family or your partner. Go to the cinema, go for walks, go out for coffee... or just sit and talk.
   Find your reason to live and recover. Doing fun things makes you want to live, it gives you your life lust back!!
  Spend time doing thigns you love.

Learning to accept yourself!?
   That is what you do along the way, during recovery. Its the same a trying to get your self esteem back. You focus on the good things.
  You tell yourself that you are beautiful and amazing, and talented etc etc... feel gpood about yourself and your body.
  Notice the good things!!! Accepting yourself, is realising that... this is how i look. I am not going to change that, there is no point in changing that. I wont feel better losing weight.... that is not gonna help anything.
  You have to realise that you wont be fat with a normal BMI. You wont be ugly. you will look good, beautiful!!! And you will be healthy.
  You have to accept that.

My first step in accepting myself was accepting that i was going to weigh 58-60kg... that was how it was. No less....
   and i acceppted that, even though it was hard at the beginning... then the number just lost its relevance.. i was like. .. whatever... 58?60? BMI 19... it doesnt matter, as long as i feel good and like my body. As long as i can think right, that i can run, that i can live...that matters.
   Starting to run again, has helped alot in my recovery and in accepting myself.
  I love going to the gym, i love wearing my training gear at the gym adn feel so great. I like knowing that i can move, that i can exercise... do what i love.
   And look good and feel good in my body. That is the most important.

Focus on positive things, good things... dont bring yourself down.

If anyone needs anymore advice or tips, you can comment or mail me..

1 comment:

  1. This was a very helpful and encouraging post. Thanks for keeping this blog up!