Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Saturday, August 25, 2012

My day:

Saturday, wonderful weekend!! Now its just a day left, and back to school... Why do i always think of the negative?! :)
  
My day has been very chill and relaxed. I havent dont much.
  I went out for a long long run this morning. Taking time for myself, to think, to breathe, to just run.... my favourite thing of all!!
 
And the rest of the day ive just been moping around the house, but its been good. I havent wanted to do anything else. I havent wanted to meet friends, or leave the house. Ive wanted to sit indoors.. or more, wander aimlessly from room to room!!

But i have gotten a few things done... i finished my 65 maths questions (which all had 4 questions, and 4 parts to each question..... I.E alot of maths problems to solve!!) but it felt good. To sit down, and just do homework. TO have something to do. I can get so restless, when you dont know what to do.. and you dont want to leave the house either...
   Actually, during dinner when i told my mum that i had finished my maths, i was like,  but it was good to do maths!!! to have homework. She couldnt stop laughing.... and of course called me a maths geek!! haha, as my usual name!!
  I am a bit of a maths nerd, i like and enjoy maths. Im good at it!! Of course, i do admit, it is hard at  times. But i always feel so great, when its a really hard problem and youve spent a while trying to fugure it out... and then you do!! I always feel like jumping around!! haha
   Homework is never fun, but i can find it nice sometimes when you know you have something to do. To sit down, and write an essay, or research something. Or have problems to solve, i actually like it. I find its routine, it gives me something to do.
   Even when i was little i was the same... i remember once, crying to my teacher because i didnt get any homework... i was always finished my work before eveyrone else and got extra work. But then i was so far ahead that i wasnt allowed any more extra work.
  In primary school they even wanted considered me moving up a year, as i was so ahead of everyone.
  And i am good at studying, and i enjoy it. I can spend several hours (with pauses to get up and move around, as i can get restless) just studying.
  I actually find sometimes, walking around the house, with a book infront óf my eyes, and talking abotu what im studying helps me learn...

But back to my day....?
  Otherwise, today ive watched a few episodes of 'Life unexpected' (Thank you to you who suggested that series!!!)
   And ive eaten, and ive moved from my bedroom to the sofa and back again.
  ive drunk several cups of coffee and a whole 1,5l cola zero.. but still my energy is low. It feels good to just be alone, and to mope around!!! To spend the whole day in my comfy clothes and not look in the mirror (not that that bothers me.. but because i wasnt doing anything or going anywhere i didnt need to wear make up!)
 
Tomorrow im hoping will be more of a productive day!! Ive booked myself to a gym pass, and then i want to browse around in town and see if will meet my sister. I hope so, i kinda miss her now that i dont see her everyday!!!!!!!
 
Below you can see some very ugly pictures of me :) And my outfit of the day! (i.e pyjama shorts & a loose jumper)


 
That was my boring, unproductive Saturday!!!  (Is this how my weekends are gonna be? too tired to do anything??!!!)

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