Sitting on a green blanket in the park, with the wind blowing our hair and making us look like trolls, we sit and eat strawberries and pringles and drink Coka Zero. We talk about school, and how the next chapter of our life will be - Gymnasium. A new school for both of us.
We talk about what we've done, and what we're going to do. Even ending up making wishes, how we want our life to be... what we want to do with our life.
I also found out, that
co-insidently, my friend actually found my blog... which was a surprise to me. And a bit of a chock to her, as she never knew i had had anorexia... she said, that she would never have guessed it. Which is
good!! Means, im atleast
half normal!! :)
Of course, slightly awkward.. more and more people
i know have found and started reading my blog... which is making it hard... im so hoenst on my blog. I write out my feelings and emotions, when i feel like shit.. i write it out. It helps, but now im wondering,
how honest can i actually be? do i really want my nearest adn dearest friends and family to know that i feel like shit, that i think of suicide and self harm somtimes... the days when i feel like ending it all?
No, i dont want them to know that.... i want them to know the happy me, the normal me. They dont have to know this
other me. Thats for all the rest of you.. all the anonymouses who read my blog...?
I feel torn in two.. i dont know what to do anymore... my blog is my
online diary, which im fine sharing with unknown people, but its a whole different story with people i actually know...
I dont know what to do, do i keep blogging? do i stop? but im just going to go with how i feel, see what happens!
I actually have some exciting news.... but that wont be revealed until a while.... :)
But anyway, onto my day... we ended up taking
LOADS of photos... climbing trees, jumping, twirling, ninja moves, aand a few cartwheels!! :) All in the hope of a good picture...
but we werent so photogenic today... :/
In general a relaly good day, apart from the wind and the cold.... it didnt help that i was only wearing a little dress... no jumper, no tights...
bad clothes choice today. :/
Here are the photos!!!























The photos i posted are mainly me... we took loads of photos together, and i took some really pretty ones of her, but i dont think its right to post pictures of her on here... :) So its just
Me.Me.Me!!
I do admit, i like the photos Alot!!!