Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Thursday, December 1, 2011

Why does it have to be so hard?

Usch. my body is huge. and bloated. and right now a hundred different thoughts are swirling round in MUMy head. I can't deal with my body. i can't deal with my thoughts. when will the voice in my head just give in? for my part. Im going to bed. i can't deal with myself right now.

7 comments:

  1. I work with inpatient and day treatment eating disorder patients. I think that you're trying really hard and doing you very best in recovery, but I'm worried about you. I'm hoping you're still seeing someone, even if an on outpatient basis.

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  2. Oh :( I hope you feel better soon!

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  3. Thank you.
    And yeah, im still seeing my case manager once a week.
    Just wondring why you're worried?
    For the most part i feel fine, and its just the fact that my weight isnt going up, but im not underweight so i dont need to be there all the time. :)

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  4. hi i posy messages all the time and are finally leavig for help in 2 days at a special resort in queensland australia they hep with anxiety and said they have to fix your mind and then as that get fixed slowly the food so i cant wait time to star my journey to a healthy mind body and soul. thought i just let you know
    also they do yoga and masssage there ane are all organic which since i love being fit i can do exercise to not alot though everything in ahealthy way

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  5. with mando did they feed u alot right away that would be real hard

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  6. It sounds reallly good that you're getting the help you need.
    i hope it goes well for you, lots of luck.
    Yoga is good, and the massages will be good, i think!
    Its good that you get help with the mind, because thats where the problem is :)

    lots of luck with recovery!

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  7. Well, to me it was alot of food. But looking back over my first few meal plans.. it really wasnt. alot less then a normal person would eat, but more then i had been eating.
    For some people they dont have to raise the meal plan too much, but you start off with a little, and then depending on if you gain wieght or not, they raise it. :)

    But of course, going from not eating, to then having 6 meals (whether they were big or small) it was hard, its a diffucult change.

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