Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Saturday, December 3, 2011

The parties canceled.

Kinda sucks, i was looking forwaard to it, but as my mum is sick, we didnt think it was a good idea.. so it'll have to be next weekend? Maybe.
  
I've been serisouly restless today, i've gone from one thing to the next, reading and then deciding to do the dishes, then half watching a film, half studying. And every 5 minutes going up and doing something or other.. idont know why. It feels like i just want the day to be over, but at the sme time, i dont want the weekend to be over. I really dont want to go to school on Monday, im so tired of school and studying.
 
I did go on a long walk this morning though, i had so many thoughts, and i felt so restless that i just needed to get out of the house.

I have so many thoughts at the moment, its hard. I havent felt one bit hungry today, but ive eaten what i should anyway.
  I hate how i can go from  Being so pep... really wanting to get better, gain the weight, to seriously depp. I mean it... im feeling low, i dont know what i want. Of course i want to be completly free.. no Mando, no weight issues, no having to gain weight. Just free and healthy.
   But of course theres the times when it feels like I would feel better about myself if i lost 10kg... But i know deep down. I wouldnt.

Like in all honesty, most of the time.. i feel better about my body, and feel smaller then i did when i weighed 15kg less...

Ok.... Im gonna try and concentrate on a film now.


xxx


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