Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Monday, October 31, 2011

not so much to say about today.

I wish i had more to write.
But i dont know... theres nothing to write about.
And it feels like no one reads my blog anymore, anyway??

Basically my day has gone seriously slowly.
Ive gone for a walk,
ive taken a few autumn photos
done the washing.

And eaten, but hated every moment of it.
Ive felt sick today.
Havent wanted to eat.

And my head is spinning, at the same time that i know i need to gain weight,
its almost making it harder to eat.
It feels like slowly Ana is coming back.
Like im dreading dinner.... and theres no good reason why.

im tired and bored.
Tomorrow im going to study though and go and get my reserved book from the library.
The girl who kicked the hornets nest - Steig Larsson

I read teh second one about a month and a half ago. :)
So im hoping for the rest of mid-term i'll be reading.
Havent got so many other plans... not exactly anyone to meet. (FML)
I might so swimming one day im hoping.
Try to meet someone.
And then on either friday or saturday, i hope i can go to this halloween party.

Thats my plans.

Please comment? hehe 
(On any post!)


  1. Its so nice to read about you, you are a fighter and you can do this I feel when I read.I read your blogg every day!And I hope I one day will be where you are now.x

  2. plz dont say no one reads ur blog i do and sometimes it gives me so much strength please dont give up. U have every reason to live a beautiful life . Go defeat ANA , dont let her get stronger than us . Do it for u and for every other girl.For once and for all get rid of Mando and get ur life back the whole of it and i am saying it cause i did!

  3. you can do this, life is so much more than numbers and size. enjoy food while you can and defeat ana! she's not worth your time and all. i'm a recovering anorexic as well, you can have a look @ my blog!

  4. Somedays it feels like no one reads my blog... i dont know... and it feels like i mean.. .whats so special about mine? but anyway...

    Anonymous 1 - Thank you. Thats so sweet, and as long as you go against Ana, and fight... and dont give in.. then you will be where i am (Or better... ) :)

  5. Rachel... are you recovered? just wondering. Did you go treatment?
    And i know one day i will be fully recovered... i still have my down days... and i suppose today is one of thoose. Kind of.

  6. I want to be where you are and I will be one day...I wrote to you before and we was in Mando HDV Huddige same time. I am now going for a other treatment called MHE kliniken in Mora,hopefully they can help someone like me.. I do think you are amazing and keep it going.Linda

  7. Hi!!
    I hope things go well for you there!! :) Bets of luck.
    You had blonde hair, right?


  8. Hi,Nope im a brunette long hair did have a hint of red in it. I always sat on the end at the table when we eat and in the "lab" for lunches and dinners...I spoke English with you as I lived In England before, maybe remember we spoke alitte???lol...x

  9. thanks for this information. You can read my anorexia skeleton article... thanks

  10. i am to quit ean extent except for the fact that i havent got my periods back and somedays i get my ed thought but my mom has been really supportive and yes i have been to hospital a few times cause i cut my wrist but now its fine and i know theres so much to look forward in life .

  11. Ok. no sorry i dont remember you. I've been in HDV so many times and I've seen so many girls Its hard to remember everyone:)

  12. Rachel - i would say Im kinda the same. But i have my period.
    but somedays i do still get ana thoughts. and i suppose the fact that Im not my goal weight either :)
    and yeah... i can see the good things in life and not scared. to eat. :)

  13. Hey I have a question: Do you believe in God?

  14. Hmmm... I suppose i m christian. But i dont know. I dont know what i believe in. Im not a strong believer.
    But its hard to answer... im always worried of offending anyone when i say im not a believer. :)

  15. I really like your blog. It's so inspirational and helpful. Thank you. :)