Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Monday, August 22, 2011

I cant deal with stress.

Ive realised how bad i am with stress.
I mean. I really cant handle it.
Stress. Panic. Nerves.
 I mean its natural.
Everyone gets stressed and scared, nervous.
But when i do.
Thats when all these thoughts come.
I mean, jsut as we were going to leave the house i started getting stressed and nervous.
And thats when i started to panic
and suddenly i hated what  i was wearing.
how i looked.
my hair.
my body.
Everything was wrong with me.
And it was jsut cus i got stressed,
but once i thought logically i realised.
There was nothing to stress about.
and then i was fine.

When the thoughts and all that come, thats when i really look at myself,
and i start critiszing myself.
Hating myself.
I'll jsut stare into the mirror,
notcing my dry hair, the fine blond hair thats on my hands or on my face (ffrom being ot skinny) the nails that are bitten.
I start critisizing, things that nobody else woud notice or pay any attention to.

Usch, but the thing is... you cant avoid stress. and i get so easily nervous and panicked....
And school wont help anything.... :/
Something i just got to learn to control.




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