Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Sunday, August 14, 2011


Sorry about my previous posts. They've been very depressive.
    This weekend, i havent felt so good. :/ You may have realised.

All i seem to be able to think
 about is my body and weight. these numbers swirling around in my head. I cant stop thinking about it.

But im determined to not fuck up and to not go back to inpatiants, that ive actually eaten what i should, not that im sure any of you actually care.
   In fact... i dont even know if anybody reads this blog? I mean... whats so interesting about it... but, sure,sure!! :)
  The only thing which i may have done wrong was that for my afternoon snack, i seriously didnt want what was on my meal plan... so i decided to make up my own.. Wonder if it was a good idea? But i didnt just take a fruit, i counted out how many calories i had to eat and then i put together, oatmeal with banana and milk and a hot chocolate... :)

This weekend i can say has been hard. But its gone well.

Yesterday was a pretty slow day. My mum was busy so she couldnt drive to a beach or anything but as the sun was shining i wasnt planning on being inside.
   So i jsut took my dog and went to the nearby park, lay down on a blanket and within minutes i was asleep!!! hahah

And then later, me and mum went to this midnight race. It started at 10pm and there was 21,000 runners. Who were going to run a 10km race.
   so me and mum were there adn watched.

The first runner ran the 10km in 31 minutes...kinda impressive? :)
   and it wasnt until 2 hours later me and mum left.

And that was my saturday.

Today, Sunday. ive just bee at home, my mum has droven to the airport o pick up my sister whos been on holidays now.. Kinda jealous. :)

Tomorrow its back to Mando. Usch. But aslong as things have gone well then i'll jsut be there from 10am till 1pm, which isnt bad. But i dont know about this weekend?
   I'll jsut have to see.


  1. hello,dear beautiful girl,can I please have your e-mail?I want to write you a letter,please!

  2. Just checking, do i know you anonymous ? cud theres a few anonymous's.

    But if i know you. should i Facebook you my mail?
    oh and can you write here if i know you? heh. kinda confused!!!

  3. Your legs is gorgeous!!!!!

  4. Hahaha.... that really made me smile reading your comment. But Nah... Usch... my legs are the worst... :/

    But thank you!!!

  5. no,you don't know me,my name is Emilija,I am from Latvia (you most likely don't know where it is :D),I really want to write you a privat letter,because I'm anorexic and desperate and I can't talk about it with anyone,but I found your blog and thought that I could write you a letter maybe and we could become penfriends if you would like,because I have so much to say to you...

  6. Sorry. I would love to talk to you. But I don't feel comfortable giving you my adress.
    Is there another way maybe? I mean I could give you an
    Email adress? It's not my personal one but if you'd like to email me I could give it to you? :)

  7. yeah,anywhere I can write you a letter,it would be great,because I really don't want to write it here,whre anybody can read it.

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  9. can you write once you're gotten the email address, cus then i want to delete the comment!! Thanx

  10. ok,I will write you you can delete that comment!:)

  11. Hey I just wanted to say I found your blog :) It's very inspiring and you HAVE to keep writing. I'm not anorexic, but I have not been eating lately. I also have Cystic Fibrosis. I just want to let you know that there are others out there like you. :) Good luck. Get through this with me.