Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Friday, July 8, 2011

Sweet dreams

My first time in 10 and a half weeks, to finally get to sleep in my own bed. :O
   It feels wrong. Weird.

I mean, what was the big deal about that i couldnt sleep at home? I dont know.

Sometime this evening im gonna go home, either we go out for a picnic for dinner or we eat at home, we'll see how we feel. and then i spend the night at home, and am back to Mando tomorrow morning.
   so not much time at home. but its something?

Today i went out to a restaurant for lunch - Much better then the food we get served here. and got a half hour or so to leave the clinic :)
   Chicken and rice it was :)

Yesterday i was talking to my back up case manager, and we talked about my weight. not a subject i love. but i brought it up.
   As i know im nearing my goal weight.... :O :/ Hmmm.....

Basically, i've nearly reached it. which is a first. ive never reached my goal weight before....
   So my sub case manager said that when ive reached it, they'll tell me, i dont hvae much trsut in them, but i have no other choice.
   and she said we'd clebereate... somehow.

i dont think i'll feel much like celebrating. Weighing a number i dont want to weigh, and the fact that i have then gone up 10-15kg..... Nice? No. it makes me cringe.
    But i dont have any other option. i cant jsut lose weight again.

But im gonna ask, if im gonna celebrate, if i cn go to this big theme park. I used to go eveyr year... but last year i wasnt allowed, so im thinking. if i'm my goal weight/my healthy weight, then theres no reason why i cant go... and im celebrating?
   If my case manager says no however, i'll as the doctor, he's the one who makes the final decision.  :)

We'll see what happens.... ?


Maybe my favourite place in stockholm :) - maybe?

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