Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Tuesday, May 10, 2011

unexpected visitor.

As im not actually allowed visitors. i was surprised when my mum came :)

I dont think she knows she wasnt allowed to come, but i wasnt planning to say no.

She was really glad when she heard i had eaten ice cream :) hahah... Yes... im proud of myself.. so im goin to keep mentioning ice cream,ice cream, ice cream...LOL... ok. thats my moment over.

It was nice to see mum :)

I get to see her tomorrow as well, as i have a meeting at BUP. Yay... Time away from Mando:)

Overall, today has been reallly good:)
Just upset over my little hick ups. how i cheated. i feel so stupid. i hate when i do it.
   i jsut wish i wouldnt let ana take control like tthat. like i want to show healthy not unhealthy. :(

It really does make me upset when i cheat. not because i get caught, but because i let ED taake control, i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.
   im jsut ready to get better now. to get rid of this stupid eating disorder....

I have a few plans for myself. not sure if i'll actually be allowed them, but its good to have goals...?


  • Get time out during the weekend. do soemthing fun, or go somewhere and take my 3 snack out :)
  • next weekend (or whatever weekend it is.) to be home and watch the Euro vision.... i feel ready, to try maybe some cheese doodles? maybe? We always make a big night of the Euro vision. up all night. laughing at the acts. eating junk food :) having friend over. Last year, i was in the hospitil, but that didnt stop my mum, sister and my friend coming to the hopital, with bags of junk food:) Embarrassing, as i like wouldn eat any of the food and they sat there munching away :) hahaha but im hoping this year, i'll be home:) i can hope
  • When the 4th pirates of hte caribbean comes out, to go to the cinema
So there my little treatts i want. of course, that means work. and i have to actually mention these to my case manager... but im sure things will go fine... but i dont want to have to be in a wheelchair. :(

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