Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Tuesday, May 10, 2011

My positive list :)

I have found, that now - when things are going well. I've gotten more page views and more comments!! Yay:)

I mean, really, who wants to sit and read about my boring day, where I ate horrible food. Fought with the staff. And just feel shit.
It's like - yes, we get it. You have problems. But you're not the only one. If it was me. I'd tell myself to shut up and stop complaining
I won't deny that those posts wont come back again, my life isn't that great. but for now.... I'm gonna try to write the good stuff :)

My progress :)
I mean, I'm sure you're all more interested in me getting better, trying new foods, finding a liking for foods, and being happy, or as happy as I can be, considering.

My positive list -

I'm happy - considering. (And for now, not always.)
The sun is shining
Things are going well
Eating isn't as hard anymore
I'm hoping to be ALOT better fore summer, and to be out of any eating clinic.
I'm just getting on with Mando - I hate it. Still having my small hick ups and fights. Still crying dome days. But just getting on with everything
I think my recovery will go quickly
I really do think I can manage at hone - with support at first:)


For now I'm gonna try to keep a smile On my face. But that can change so quickly.
In fact, I'm scared that it will.

I just have to wait and see how everything goes. for now, I know nothing.


  1. I'm so happy for you that things are going well :D The huge progress you've made in the past few days has been just AMAZING! Try to keep things going well, because it's so great when they do :) And even if Mando is so hard to be at, it's still for the best, they're trying to help you get better. I mean, look at this amazing progress you've makde while there! Try to stay on their good sidesand things will work out fine ;D

    I don't really have time to say much else right now, I have to finish up some work and get to bed pretty quick tonight.. but to sum things up, everything for me is going the total opposite of well at the moment. I'll tell more tomorrow when I actually have time to be commenting. But yeah, all year I've been hitting what I think is my lowest point i've ever been at, and then it just continues to get worse than before. And now it's worse than ever. In fact, if not for my trip to Austria in six weeks, not even sure if I could handle still being here. It's what's keeping me going forward at the moment.

    So happy for you, sorry for the slightly depressing comment :) You're doing so well and improving so much, just keep going and you'll be out of all this in no time :)

  2. Good that everythings working for you:D it´s your blog, write what you feel like:) I read everything, you write so good so even if it can feel bad is the text you had writing really god, if you understand what I mean:)

  3. I know exactly how you feel, thinking you've hit rock bottom, that you cant get any worse.... and then it does.
    Ive been like that WAY TOO MANY times.
    For a while, the only thing to keep me living was my dog... to ge to see her again.
    but soon that stopped, and each day, was unbearable. depressed. not eating. and this was even when i was in Mando. the times i cheated and was losing weight.

    Its awful to hear that you're feeling like this, i wish i could help you. wish i could send you some of my positiveness :) (im jsut radiating it:) hahaha) [sorry... now im making you feel bad..????]

    I wish you could get help, i wish somehow you could jsut get magically well... im sorry to say it... but without help, you're just going to be feeling worse and worse.

    But on the other side, maybe this is what you need? you need to get angry, 'actually' hit bottom. reach the point, where there is no way you can actually live with the illness anymore.

    I think thats what happend to me this time, i jsut realised. its not worth it.
    but as you can see, its taken me a year in treatment for that to happen. each time, i just cheated... but this time, i wont.
    i wont let myself. i wont EVER go back to how i felt at my worst.

    Because that wasnt nice.

    I just hope you have the strength to actually go to Austria. i think it would be good for you. to get away from your home? your routines... your parents?
    bit of a change.

    There really isnt so much i can say. its not as easy as jsut eating. it wont matter if i say, that its what you should do....
    but it sounds like you need a complete change. to stop your routines.

    And dont worry about your comment:) its just nice to read your comment anyway.. depressing or not:) :D

    You dont think you could talk to anyone? or tell someone something... i jsut want to help you.. i wish i could. :/