Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Friday, May 13, 2011

Just a little bit happy :)

Today for my 3 snack, first of all i was feling really good :) Ok, so i dont et to go home... but im not in trouble or anything.
   and people have noticed im doing well... so Yay... and things are going well. i just need to carry on with what im doing.
   So i might be out of here quickly? not 2 weeks, but maybe 2 months... ??

But anyway, for my 3 snack, i saw... there was Risifrutti Pear.
   Ive waited forever for that :)

They didnt  have it at Mando at first, and i couldnt find it in any of the shops... not that i would haev eaten it on my own accord... as i wasnt really eating then. :( (stupid. stupid. stupid.)

But today... there it stood.... shining :) ahha.
   No, but it made me smile.

and then, as i was feeling good and happy and  as the dietitian had asked me if ate cheese, i said yes...(but i rarely do.) I took cheese....
   and you know what.... i enjoyed my whole snack :) even though the risifrutti i 230 cal... i didnt care. i didnt care about the cheese and butter. I jsut enjoyed eating it... and ate in 15 minutes :) ( usually ate in 25 minutes) Improvment?

Later, for visiting hours, mum came..... didnt have a good time.

Ive started arguing with her more. Its like, she doesnt believe i actually want to get better,
she thinks im lieing, like eveyrone else blah blah blah.
    and im jsut annoyed with her, generally. but i think im taking my anger, my hate... everything out on her.

I feel sorry for her.

Im not to sure if she'll come tomorrow or not. i had a pretty shit time.

Like usually thats what i look forward to. Mum visitng.

Not really now.



  1. Thats a really pretty picture! did you take that today? b/c the room in the background looks nice but i always picture mando rooms as looking like jail cells hahaha

  2. Thank you;)

    But no. The picture was taken maybe 2 years ago now.

    Me and my sister and friends were out in a cottage for a week or so in summer, and we did Make overs.

    My look was inspired if Lady Gaga. Hint the 'bow' in the hair and the lady gaga lips :)

    The Mando rooms are very hospital like. Yes- like jail cells.
    They're white and empty and not one bit nice. Makes you miss your own room even more. :/
    Some people decorate their rooms - it looks nicer then:) but not me.
    It doesn't feel right yo do it. Like I'm not planning to stay long, so I don't want it to be like I'm
    Moving in....

  3. I'm so proud of you Izzy! you're a real fighter! :D <3