Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Thursday, May 5, 2011

I'm not an inspiration. I'm not yo be followed or looked up to. I'm a failure.

No one is ever to fOllow my lead.
Love yourself. Love your body.

Please. Any anorexic. Listen to me.

From reading my blOg, do you see how bad things can get?

If I keep losing weight, I'll be on the verge of death, personally I can't see it and find it hard to believe, but it's what I'm told.

The pain, the torture I go through.

It isn't a life.

And why do I go through it?

Cus I don't want to sit? Dint want to eat?

Yes it's that, but it's also, so much more.

Eating disorders never stay secret.

Think- do you want to be 50. Friendless. Lifeless. Stick thin. Not have the energy for anything. Obsessed with calories and food.
Do you want ti be 50 with an eating disorder? If you even live that long.
Chances would be slight.

I just want to help everyone.

Let everyone see, see how bad things can get.

I'm not yo be followed.
In the last year alone. I've been in 2 eating clinics, been on permanent beseech, had NG feeding, collapsed due to not eating, moved country cus of my anorexia. Been an inpatient 5 times altogether, day patient 2 times. I self harm. I've over dosed.
Abd so much more.

Millions of tears, so much heartache, pain, torture.

Is that what you want?

Please, if you have an eating disorder, learn from my mistakes. Do right from the very beginning. Dint prolong this. Dobt make things harder for yourself.
I wish someone had warned me.

It's hard to just listen to someone's warning, no Ine will ever know what it's like unless you experience it.

But I wish I could take back time.

Whisper in my ear. Do right from the beginning. Be strong.

I wish everyone luck.

I'm a failure. An unsuccessful story, but I'm determined to change that.

Keep a smile on your face, even when others can't

XxxxxxxxX

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