Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Friday, May 27, 2011

I feel so free. Light. But at the same time trapped.

Like eating is going well.... And sitting is going so much better... So I'm feeling light and free. Happy! but still... Sometimes I get a thought like - you're fat. Horrible. A pig who eats too much. Who'll ever love you or want you?

Like I have so much more control then Ana. But somedays that voice comes back. Tearing me down. Trying to break me. Trying to gain control.

And I feel so trapped in these mando walls. I could be doing something more beneficial... Of course I know, Mando is helping me. I wouldn't be where I am now... If I hadn't come here. But still... Now I feel trapped here. Now I want my chance to fly.. To get away from here.
Mando has given me the push, Tge start I need.

But maybe I'll be out of here soon, a new chance... A new beginning.

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