Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Saturday, May 7, 2011

Cheese and butter

Haha :)

Everything went well :) the sandwich even tasted good :)

Change in me, or what? but I told you.... Eating isn't as hard now, it's not so much a problem :)

I got no panic or anything :) I do admit, when I first spread the teaspoon butter on the bread it seemed like Loads it made me cringe. I wanted to change. But I didn't. I thought, why can't I eat butter? Or cheese?

Proud of me? I am very!!! :D
Follow in my lead. If I can overcome eating issues, Anyone can!!

Activity issues, that's another question though:)

I'm just feeling happy and proud of my self now:)

Bring on The pizza, chocolate, ice cream ;)

First chance I get, I want to try raspberry Kex chocolate or a Ben and jerrys ice cream :)

Not so anorexic, am I? :) that's ok. It doesn't bother me.

I don't want to be sick I don't to be anorexic. It's nit who I am.
I don't associate myself with anorexia. Anorexia isn't me. And it doesn't scare me.

I just need to find me now :)


Ougggghhhh let's hope this lasts.
But I know it won't. The second I go back into the day room, the staff watching me. I'll crack.


  1. I'm so happy for you! You're finally on track! :D Seems that things are going well for you, maybe when you have a chance we'll go have a REAL ice cream, Ben & Jerry's! ;)
    And hold on to this feeling, I'm proud for you too! There's no better feeling than knowing you are great! That you have managed to do something so significant, something that demands such power!!
    However when it comes to the staff, don't let them affect your mood. They're not there because they want to torture you or punish you, they don't have anything to win out of this. They are just doing their job, what they've been told to do in order for this treatment to work. Give it a go, just imagine you're a spoiled girl who has servants haha! You can command anything, like bring me water, get me my bag and such things. In fact, if you feel they torture you, just do that and it might help! :P
    I'm happy that you're thinking like this now. Just keep going!
    Lots of love! <3 A.

  2. IM SO PROUD OF YOUUUUU!!!! :DD Don't crack girl stay on track you have it in you to succeed in beating this illness for good i know it. This is proof. I still struggle with butter and cheese myself (had butter for the first time yesterday in fact, it's on my blog lol) so this is a huge step for you to have taken. Good on you! It's good that you are willing to be yourself now and not an illness. I also wrote about this yesterday, how anorexia isn't an identity. It's a life ruiner and once you find your own identity you will feel so much happier and start to actually love yourself :)

  3. I love reading your blog these days! You're the strongest!
    See you on wednesday :)

  4. yay yay yay yay yay! You are so strong :)

  5. Thank you everyone :)

    I'm very proud of myself :)

    Actually planning to take cheese and butter again, not as scared of it, or worried to eat it :)

    Things are going well :)

    Even managing to sit :D