Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Can't everyone see?

For some reason today, im feeling really happy :)  don't ask me why.
Cus I don't know.

I mean, nothings happening today, I'm not even getting any visitors. Today is just a regular Mando day. sitting. Eating. Nothing else.
I mean, it's not even the nice staff working today.

But I'm just happy? And it feels like everyone should see?
I'm not going around smiling, for all I know I could look really depressed, but that's not how I feel.

I generally just feel good :)

Things are going well - no cheating with my meals. I'm sitting - relaxed even. (of course not all the time)
I just hope everyone, or atleast someone has noticed :) im eating in good time (Used to eat in about 20 - 25 minutes. but now its down to 10 - 12 minutes. round 16 minutes for lunch and dinner.)

   It feels good ot not sit at the table for a half hour... :) 

Like no idea what my plan is. But I so badly want to go home. I mean, if I can show that things work at home,I could be out of here quickly :)
I just need the chance.

Considering tomorrow I've been here 3 weeks, and still not even allowed to walk to the main hospital, I'm not so sure how fast, fast is.
But I've realised, that the worst hasn't happened yet - I was expecting permanent wheelchair. Someone watching and following me everywhere. Or not be allowed ro do my trays.
So far that hasn't happened. I have a bit of freedom. And I'm not. Going to mess with it.




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