Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Tears the colour of darkness.

I just wantt to cry. Its awful im sitting here trying to keep my tears in.
  Just talked ot my supervisor and she says on friday im going to have ot get an acivity monitor adn have it on until Monday. :( My mum is gonna freak. Im jsut gonna have to sit at home all weekend. :(
  and she think im depressed because there's nothing im looking forward to, thats just the way it is. Gronalund, the theme park which i wanted to go to is clsoed for this year, theres no chance that my dog is going to be flown over. i dont have any friends. Theres no hobby i have. so theres nothing which im looking forward ot, i would love to fly soemwhere, somewhere exoctic, but that costs money.
  In November i am going to England though, for my cousins wedding, but if things dont go right the staff at Mando can tell met hat i cant go, so even though im working, doing my best everyone still doubts me and wants to put a stupid monitor on me.
   and i thought i was getting better. :(

I would seriously be self harming if i could rihgt now because eveyrthign sucks. Why even continue with life if it just sucks. Its my life, if i want to end it? why cant i?
  i dont think its selfish, i've been todl that if i kill myself that im being selfish, but its my life i should get to do what i wnat with it, and what i want is to end my life.

I've actually thought of a new way of killing yourself, an easy way.
  Taking sleeping pills, and then hop in the bath. Die in your sleep.



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