Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Saturday, October 23, 2010

Shopping

Today we didnt reall have anythign planned. but my sister needs a dress for wehn we go to England(if i even get to go?)
  So we headed into town. Did a bit of looking around. Then for three we wen into a cafe, at first i couldnt find anything to eat. nothing looked veyr appetizing, but i saw the look on my mums face so i was just like, "suck it up." so i choose this cocnut cake thing and a chai tea. The coconut cake was veyr filling but it was nice in all honesty. Kinda worried about the calorie content though. :/
  Then we came home. We were gonna have my mums aunt and uncle over for dinner, but they didnt come. So we jsut cooked hte food we had bought anyway, prawns with rice in a cocnut/tomatoe sauce!! Was very nice!! That was my day.  But i jsut keep worrying about Monday. Like seomtiems i think, this is good. Im gonna get the help i need to get out of this patch, to get better. Becase i admit, i was stuck.
   But then i think, Damn. Im going back to in patient, im just gonna sit all day. Like now, just sitting eating for dinner or in the car for half an hour has me wanting to go for an hours run. I like et a pain in my legs from sitting all day, or for jsut half an hour. So its really gonna suck.. Also that i sont know any of the girls in HDV, and they're all stick thin, i mean it. MOs of them are in wheelchairs. :(
  But i couldn really care about getting to know them. Im here to get ebtter, not make friends. (I feel like the girls in Americas Next Top Model [Im here to win, not make friends!!] Well i think i know what its like to be in ANTM house.!! Stick thin girls in a house.)
   And i do so veyr much hate the in patient staff, they're veyr mean. But oh well.  2 weeks, thats all. and after that. My weigh will go up and keep going upso that i can get out of there and get onw tih my life. Lets hope.

And for Haloween, not thati really cared about it. But i think im going to be stuck indoors. My sister was saying that she would take me to a party. But i guess that aint gonna happen. :( Sad\face. Very.

Oh well... what can you do?
  Its my fault, somehow. So i need to get out of this and get out into the real world!!

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