Life without Anorexia

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'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Up and down.

My weight -
  Cus im bored nad have nothing better to do,im going to give you a rough estimate of how much i haev weighed over the last while.
  So i think when i was healthy and in school i was about 50kg, thats my goal weight now.
Then... i dont know... we didnt have a weighing scales in the house.
  ut when i went into the irish hospital i was around 44kg.
  Then i went odwn a bit, and was put on NG feeding in the peadiatrics unit.
  Then after two weeks of NG feeding and when we were heading to sweden i was around 46kg
 Then when i was admitted to Mando hospital, three weeks later, i was 42kg. (Hehe, is it only me who like the fact that i went down 4kg in 3 weeks? I know my mum wouldnt be impressed. Annd if you're wondering how i know my weight, its because there was a weighing scales where i lived. I like the idea of knowing my weight... like... i think im ok if i know my weight... its better than not knowing and guessing the worst, thinkign im like 55kg now or something?)
  Now... well i have no idea what my weight is, but everythign has been going well, apart from soem weeks.. then i haev stayed the same or gone down. But im supposed to be going up 0.5kg a week.
  I think im around 45kg - 46kg now. Kinda scawey. :/

But its been 6 months since i was admitted in the irish hospital. April the 20th. But it was March the 17th, St Patriks day when i knew my mum knew, and it was the next day when i stayed home from shcool (after crying all night knowing that i was busted) that mum spoke to me and then after that i think i went weekly to see this doctor, psycologist type person and then on the 20th of April, i was admitted to in patient.
   Wow.... this years has been the worst, well apart from the year htta i was born, i had an operation when i was first born and spend a good half of a year in hospital. Or i think it was something like that.
  But once this is over... my years are gonna be looking up. I've spent half a year in hospitals, and liek i spend enough time sic and in hospitals with my CF as it is, no need to add extra appointments.
   Well thats my life for now... and a rough time sketch of my weight.... im seriously hoping that like... 45kg is my wieght, i know it sound stupid, but i think that is the wieght for me. Not 50kg, it jsut seems so much. But really my aim is to weigh 40kg. It jsut seems like a good weight. :/ Not 50.

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