Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Such a sick feeling.

God, its not even funny how sick i felt after my ten snack. It was awful, iwas sooo full after hte scandishake. Ugghh i hated it. i had to take a painkiller to ease the pain. The release come a good while after. :/
   And then for lunch, i had ot have it early. :/ firs i got suasage but it old my supervisor that i couldnt eat it and hse said that hse hadnt ordered that for me, and it turned out that it was another girl wtih the same name as me.
  SO instead i got like burger. :/ and there was supposed to be jam and this other like cream sauce with it, but my supervisor went and got it for me and she only gave me the cream sauce. Fuck her. Was how i felt.
  After  had eaten, god... i felt absaloutly sick. I swore iw as about to puke. I was actually wondering if i shoudl call mum and ask if i ahd to go to school or not.It was awful. But a little while after i got to school the feeling faded, but returned when it came to my three snack.
   We had a break during hte class, for twenty minutes. And i have no friends in my class, so i jsut stood there with music on and texted my sister adn another friend. Planning ot meet my friend and go Fika on Sunday, maybe. It will be nice, i havent seen her for ages and thigns haev been a bit rocky between us. Bt i always try to make an effort to keep in contact wiht my friends, i dont want to lose them.
  after school i called mum and asked if i could go to town as i didnt want to come home and just be home.
So i went into town for about half an hour, jsut wandered about ad a little look, then came home.
 So jsut after doing the dishes, which werent even mine. NOw i think i will try to find an outfit for tomorrow, the school photo. BUt im feeling that it will be a  hopeless case and will sjtu have to wait until my mum or sister get home.

For now, Ciao!!

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