Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Quiet day

Seriously didnt want to come to Mando today. I think im coming down with a cold. Headches cand sore throat galore! Not fun. :(
  But got up,was in a seriously grumpy mood. Then the bus that i took stopped alot further than i thought, so i ahd to walk further, not tha i ad a prooblem witht hat in all honesty, just that i was late!! But ah well! :)
   When it came ot my ten snack though, i felt absaloutly, positvely sick. I actually felt like thorwing up, good thignt he bathrooms were lock or i seriously would have!! :)
   Then after my ten snack, i t was cooking. So i went own with the others for that. It was cheese and turkey pie. Hmm.... didi not like that. ALOT of butter, cheese, milk.
   I didnt liek it one bit. Feel sick from it. My three snack is in a abit. Like tne minutes... urrggghh... so tired of eating.
  People should try it.. eat as much as we do... and see how horrible we feel and then see if they want ot force us to eat. :( Well... in all honesty its not forcing, its more like we're given it and told to eat, but none of us refuse it.. or not that i've seen, im sure poepl do.
   Like on my first morning with my meal plan sorted here at mando, i had my cereal, but then when it came to eting my fruit, a pear i refused. i WAS SO full. But they jsut said to me, "You know.... its up to you if you're ognna eta it or not." aND i was jsut like, no. But then i relaised a few minutes after that... do i want to go back to how i was in the irish hosptal? I promised my mum that i would try better here. So  i ate the pear.. and im so glad thta i  did. Because that was me turning the page. Starting a new. Actually trying!
   Err... that about it for now.

My supervisor doesnt have much time for me, thak God. she has a new patient... so thats allgood.

  I should start school onf riday, or next week. Serioulsy nervous, i say things go well though! And on sunday... we're moving to our own apartment. ME,my mum and my sister ina  one bedroom apartment! Wonder how thigns will work out!! :)

Got to go... food..... try to think positivly.... failing emancially!

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