Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Sunday, September 26, 2010

After the storm comes the sun.

I need to remind myself that when i get like i did before (with the suicide thoughts and self harming) that it will go away. Some times it take five mintues for it to pass, soemtimes it take a a whole day, but it will pass. ANd hat i need ot think rationally.

This might sound awful but this is what i need to think of when i get suicidal.

Hanging -
  You will instinctivly want to save yoursef once your hanging, the rope might break. You might hang there for up to a minute before you acualyl die and in that minute your not breathing and trying to save yourself.
  And if the rope breaks you might have ruined soem muscle or seomthign in your neck.

Shooting-
  First of al lwhere would i get a gun? aND second, jsut cus you shoot yourself doesnt mean you die.

Bleeding-
 Can take up to hours and once youstart, you cant go back and what if seomone walks in? How do you explain that without putting yourself ina mental institution?

Stab?
  Well first of all your survival instincts will stop youfrom stabbing yourself and your more likly to bleed before you die.

Od-
  Well your most likyl not going to die unless you take like 100 pills or seomthing. Wher would you get them? and then if you dont die, your Kidneys and Liver sure do!
Jumping off a bridge or buliding -
  Yah.. not interested int hat anyway!

So no suicide mission is a secure one. It doesnt mean you will die.

Im sorry this most probably will dsturb alot of you, but its mainly for me, because i need to be able to read this when im felling so shit i need to see that i can attempt to kill myself btu ti doesnt mena ti will work.... i read somethign like this before nd ir ealised, i can try but it wont mean it will work and all sound VERY painful if i dont die. And i dont think God wants em to die. He would ahve let the ED kill me if he wanted me gone.

I need to remind myself, that AFTER THE STORM, COMES THE SUN!  Just ride with the hurricane, because it will soon pass!






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